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okay...

As you know, i am the woman,'nkoroakjfdaskf', with which most of you have
developed an intense hatred.  I started it, yes, and now I'd like to try
to end it.  This has gotten out of control. Not only did my message
receive dozens and dozens of equally (and then some) aggressive communal
responses, but I personally received over 50 messages, many begging me to
kill myself, others warmly supportive, and then a few asking me where I
lived, challenging me to a fist fight.  I am not kidding.  This has gotten
boring and redundant.  

I had forgotten that many of OTR's fans originate from the consortium of
christian schools across the midwest, and I apologize for the harsh
language and rude tone of my note...i can understand how it fell on deaf
ears.  One girl wrote me to tell me she was praying for me.  I am
sincerely sorry for offending so many.  Honestly, I personally have sore
spots, and I hate it when people push them.  

I thought that my hyperbole about blowing up a school was obviously an
exaggeration, and that phrases about poetic faggoty types who wear trendy
glasses was absolutely funny...perhaps because I fit the mold myself so
well, and don't have a problem admitting it.  In fact, i think that these
kind of people are endearing.  It's the people who try so hard to be
unique that often look so obvious.

I admire your feverish loyalty to Linford, it reminds me of how I feel
about my mother, father and sisters. I myself do not consider Linford a
friend, although i have met him several times and love his music. And when
he makes what I consider offensive comments about pop culture people, I'm
not gonna attempt a fiat of mind reading to figure out how he really
didn't mean what he said.  I'm gonna call him on it.  I know I was rude
in the way I did it, but I doubt Linford cried over it.  I still have high
respect for Linford, but I'm not out to protect him.  

I should not have written what I wrote in the way i wrote it and to the
audience I wrote it to--it's just not that important to me when the result
is people wanting to egg my house and fight me.  Regardless of the
consequences, i can still understand how it was bad.  

Please do not do the clever cut and paste shredding of this message and
attack every single sentence...you have better things to do. Besides, I
highly doubt that Linford and Karen love the intense defense of things
they say or don't say...it can all be a bit maudlin, you have to admit. If
you are about the business of loving the band, then ignore this message
(hence the delete key) and continue to write supportive messages (I am not
being sarcastic...supportive messages are wonderful). But I am
asking...seriously folks...if you want to continue to attack/challenge
me...fine, just email me **directly** and **privately** and we can chat
(I'll be civil)...but as far as the din of aggressiveness that
continues to saturate the list-serve, well...it's gotten old. I started
it...and I'd love to try to end it.  I made a mistake.
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