yesturday i said that "give me strength" was my favorite song, it is again today, probably will be my fav for a while. the words are my thoughts all the time. 2day i had worst day at work, if 2morro isnt my last day there then next week will be. been told so many lies over last 2 years, and today i found out that an old worker and friend has had a sheriff come to her house giving her 30 days to pay over $4000
in bills from work, which are from after the date that she she resigned, and they arnt even hers, they are the bosses from over 12 months ago, he stop paying my trainee agency my wages for so mount of time, my tranee ship was soon cancelled. my boss changed address so people cant catch him and make him pay not just that bill but a hole lot more, and im the only one who knows his address, my friends have asked me for it so many times but i didnt tell them it as my boss told be bad stories about them, so ive taken his side for two yea!
rs thinking that every one has made things hard for him to acheive anything, but after today i found out who's telling lies.
there seems a simple solution here, but its not that easy, just an hour ago i gave one person my bosses address, he will no how these people got it, but he wont fire me, at the factory im the only worker apart from my mum who works part time who works there, this place had such a bad reputation and i tried so hard to turn it all around. ive worked so hard to just see it collapse (maybe for the last time) and i feel so bad for my boss, as the last 2 years he has had me brain washed, so i cant help feel sorry for him, but i think he knew id be like that and not leave. but i wont to leave. i am dead set stuck in the middle for each side i keep saying to myself maybe this and maybe that, i cant seem to stick to one side only
maybe after 2morro there wont be anything left for me to do there ind it will close down, i just want to be fired, i feel to horible to quit (my boss lives 400km from this factory) he was last here over 6 months ago, he leave my mum and myself to what we thinks best
i have a bruise on my forhead, i keep banging head on wall it is all so frustrating, just want it all to go away
do i just confront my boss and say, this is what ive been told and i know its true as there is true facts and evidence, and i just cant work here any more and walk out, or do i just walk out without saying a thing, i no that if i say something ill get worked up and argue, but i dont want too
this is so hard as my boss has helped my family so much, but i think he sucked us in more them helpped out
what do i do
id say his the worlds best brain washer, looking back over the last 2 years i have been so dumb, everything has been staring me in the face but still ignored it and believed my boss and his wife
im just glad that the 2 old work mates are still friends with me, well i no one is, they understand as they 2 were brain washed
sorry for babaling again, need to get it off my chest, if i every have more little melt downs il title them as give me strength so you all dont have to read them
it nearnly 11pm so i should go and try get some sleep, no more head banging, it hurts to much got a small bump, people probably think my mum belts me up or something which she dosent
bye bye all
emily