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Re: I hope someday you'll join us...



Peter T. Chattaway wrote:

>On Mon, 22 Jul 2002, J. Marie Hall wrote:
>
>>first thoughts beyond the basics...this is fun.
>>
>>...and i thought, "what if i'm not really alive?  what if i'm
>>just someone's dream.  what if i just stop being?"  
>>    
>>
>
>I remember very vividly being only 5-8 years old and standing in the
>bathroom and staring at the mirror and thinking, "Is that *me*!?"  I'm not
>sure whether it was because I didn't look at all like I imagined myself,
>or if it was because I had difficulty reconciling my own concrete reality
>with my more fluid imaginary reality; I could really feel the difference
>between my objective reality, the "stuff" that made up my body, and my
>subjective reality; my mind felt almost imprisoned in this body.
>

I was going to weigh in with this sort of thing eventually, but you 
saved me the trouble of staying coherent ;)

I suppose my first truly sentient thoughts were probably in front of a 
mirror before/after taking a shower...just trying to wrap my fragile 
little mind around the idea that other people expereince totally 
different things.  It was a rather strange realizeation, to say the least.  

On a somewhat related note, I swear I remember seeing myself from the 
outside once.  Then again, it would have been when I was about four, and 
I am equally willing to admit that memory is far different from a 
recording of facts...it's more a subliminal construct of what we like to 
think happened.  With that in mind, I'm not really going to claim I ever 
had an out-of-body expereince, just that I remember having one.  =)

-Smitty the Sentient Being (I think I think, therefore I think I am.)

NP: Garbage v.2 (If we sleep together, will you like me better?)

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