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akesmeinhisarms.WillamancalledJesusevertouchmeonmyface?WillamancalledJesusevertouchmeonmyface?ThetearsIcriedwouldbeerased.Thistomewouldbeamazinggrace,ifamancal
ledJesusevertouchedmeonmyface.Waiting,waiting,waiting,I'mstillwaiting.IfamancalledJesusevertouchedmeonmyface.WillamancalledJesuseverlookmeintheeyes?Willamancal
ledJesuseverlookmeintheeyes?Burnawaymyalibis,separatethetruthfromyourviciouslies,ifamancalledJesuseverlookedmeintheeyes.Waiting,waiting,waiting,I'mstillwaiting
.ifamancalledJesuseverlooksmeintheeyes.Mercy,mercy,mercy,I'llcrymercyifamancalledJesuseverlooksmeintheeyes.AllINeedIsEverythingSlowdown.Holdstill.It'snotasifit
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ll.Andyou'rewhisperingtome,timetogetupoffmyhandsandknees,'causeifIbegforit,itwon'tcome.Ifindnothingbuttablecrumbs.Myhandsareempty.GodI'vebeennaive.AllIneedisev
erything.Inside,outside,feelnewskin.AllIneediseverything.Feeltheslipandthegripofgraceagain.Slowdown.Holdstill.It'snotasifit'samatterofwill.Someone'scircling.So
meone'smovingalittlelowerthantheangels.Thisvoicecallingmetoyou:it'sjustbarelycomingthrough.Still,Iclearlyhearmyname.I'vebeenfingeringtheflameliketomorrow'smart
yr.Itgetshardertobelieve.AllIneediseverything.Inside,outside,feelnewskin.AllIneediseverything.Feeltheslipandthegripofgraceagain.Sofromnowtillkingdomcome,tastet
hewordsonthetipofmytongue.'Causewecan'truntruthoutoftown,onlyforceitunderground.Therootsgrowdeeperinwayswecan'tconceive.AllIneediseverything.Inside,outsidefeel
newskin.AllIneediseverything.Feeltheslipandthegripofgraceagain.AllIneedisallIneed.Amelia'sLastthesearethe(whosearethe?)thesearetherawmaterialsyouandmethesearet
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mboutofherefindthewaytosomequietplacewhereyouarethisnightissodarkthisnighthassilenceandverylittlefeartellmethiswelcomepeaceisn'tdancingwiththeghostoffuturetear
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romgrace.Ain’titfunnyhowlifecandragbehindusjustlikesomuchdeadweight.Andmyhometowntrainispullingfromthestation.AndIknowforonceIreallywillbelate.AndI’lldreamthat
wecanleavethepastbehindusjustlikesomuchdeadweight.SometimesIliketostickmyfingerswheretheydon’tbelong.EtceteraWhateverDon'tspeak.Wordscomeoutyoureyes.You'rewetw
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outhinkyouhavenoothergifttogive,butwehavesomuchlefttolive.Wedon'tneedalotofmoney.We'llbesleepingonthebeach,keepingoceanswithinreach.(Whateverprivateoceanswecan
conjureupforfree.)Iwillstumbletherewithyouandyou'llbelaughingclosewithme,tryingnottomakeasceneetcetera.Whatever.IguessallIreallymeaniswe'regonnabealright.Yeah,
we'regonnabealright.Youcancloseyoureyestonight,'causewe'regonnabealright.Socomeonnow,Icanalmostseethatplaceonadistantshore.Andcourageisaweaponwemustusetofindso
melifeyoucan'trefuse.Wedon'tneedalotofmoney.We'llbesleepingonthebeach,keepingoceanswithinreach.(Whateverprivateoceanswecanconjureupforfree.)Iwillstumbletherewi
thyouandyou'llbelaughingclosewithme,tryingnottomakeasceneetcetera.Whatever.IguessallIreallymeaniswe'regonnabealright.Yeah,we'regonnabealright.Youcancloseyourey
estonight,'causewe'regonnabealright.AllthatIcanseeisyoureyes.Closeyoureyes.Closeyoureyes.Everyman'sDaughterLookinsidefortheelusivegoldmine.Brokenglassandalittl
echeapwineisallthatIcanfind.Andbundlesofcontradictions,myheartfulloflooseconnections,handsacrossmyeyes.IcannotdisguiseI'meveryman'sdaughter.It'salwaysthesameol
dquestion.WhoamIandwhoseinvention?Thisarmour'sfullofdust.There'ssomuchofusineachother.IfIhateyouyou'remybestreminderofallIwishIwas.IhateyoujustbecauseI'meverym
an'sdaughter.WhodoyouthinkthatIam?Itdon'tmatterlongaswecanunderstand.Iamhurtingsomeone.Iamhurtingsomeonejustlike,justlikeyou.Insultingthewoundsofothers,mysiste
rs,mybrothers,myvision'swaytoogood.Icarrytheinwardaching.Likeyou,Itooamnaked.Idon'tlookthatgood,butthisisfleshandblood.I'meveryman'sdaughter.Lookatallthebloodw
e'vespilt.Ican'tdealwithallthisfundamentalguilt.Iamhurtingsomeone.Iamhurtingsomeonejustlike,justlikeyou.Iam.Iam.Iameveryman'sdaughter.EyesWideOpeneyeswideopent
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eezethatfrightensoffthisheat?FaithfullyDangerousYourpaintdries,thecanvassmiles,withtwoeyesyouliftyourselfup.Strokeyourskin,thereareteethmarkstobesure.Maybewe'r